Patience.

Patience has to be the HARDEST virtue ever to learn. And I suck at it. I also suck at keeping secrets but THIS secret I will keep. At least for a couple more days. haha this should be fun...I'll just let your mind's go crazy.

Jose is at Youth Conference and we won't see him till Tomorrow evening. :( We miss him terribly. As much as I hate the "cry it out" method. I did it tonight. But my limit was 20 min. I don't understand how parents can set a bed time do the bed time routine and just let their kid cry and cry and cry. for hours. especially babies, who don't really understand and think you leave them when you leave the room and close the door and they are all alone and you aren't coming back. I just can't do it. If my child needs to be rocked to sleep till he's 2 then so be it. But at least then I can talk to them tell them "you lay here, here's some books to look at, but you don't get out of bed, mommy and daddy are going to bed too, you are safe, I love you, good night." (rant over) And luckily he feel asleep. This mama was exhausted (I've slept horribly the past few nights) and my patience was zero. So after nursing, in the bed Rocky man went. I needed a little time to either close my eyes and power nap or have Mommy time. I chose mommy time, cuddled up in a blanket, laying on the couch. Then I passed out and woke up 2 hours ago and haven't been able to go back to sleep. But now I think I shall go to sleep. Till next time.